Death is really an Uninvited Guest, But sometimes Not !!!

Not every beautiful morning carry the same good news all the time even though we wish for it. Its not a saying which i have found from somewhere, but what i have seen and felt from my life itself. And those words which are spoken from life had always prepared me to face any unexpected situations i may come across in my life. Yes, it helped me to accept and understand things in a more practical way than earlier, though deep inside i am still the same.

It was while taking class to my newly joined students explaining the concepts of designing and all that, suddenly my colleague rushed in to my room even without notice.  Since she dont used to do the same on other days and on seeing her tensed face i could feel something wrong has happened and so leaving back the sudden disturbance she had caused to my class , i asked her what was the matter which has put her in such a situation to do so. With trembling words it really took a little more time for her to convey me the message that a former student of our institution has died..to be precise committed Suicide.

      It has not been good news to hear on that time of the day, that a student very familiar to us has passed away and that too he has ended his life all by himself. It took me few minutes to recover from the sudden shock of the news i have heard and his face keeps on flashing in front my eyes since he has left our institution hardly a month ago after the completion of the course. The news of his death was  conveyed to us only when we had called up to home to inform that the certificate of the course he has done, has been issued from the head office and is ready to collect from our institution. And the course coordinator who has put the call to his home was the first one to hear this sad news. While continuing my classes for the students i was deeply low inside, thinking why god has wished to end the life of a poor man in this way.

It was about three months before that he has joined our centre for getting specialized in civil drafting software. Being a Btech degree holder in civil stream more than ten years back itself and having an age of approximately 37 years, he was standing at that stage of life when he visited our centre that he could barely bear the hardships of his life...a person who has literally failed in every attempts to advance in life and feeling hopeless. His unstable career pursued him to stay unmarried and not having a proper job has always put pressure on him and on top of it, he was a depression patient too. What more a life can punish him during all these years other than these...

Even while during the advancement of the course, he was constantly worried about the future and was always packed up with a lot of confused thoughts. and used to discuss the same with us in our free time. To save money everyday, he used to come to our institution by walking more than 3kms in afternoon under scorching sun. He is the only person i have seen recently who don't possesses a mobile phone which is so uncommon these days. As a favour for his miserable situation, by the end of the course our manager had even arranged a job for him. Like every person he too was wishing to advance, settle in life, get married and all. But....

Thinking more about it,i am getting lost in thoughts and more confused too. But still i am making myself believe that, it may be the gods decision to end his life in such a way that, god just saved him from the sufferings he has been undergoing all these years....

Even while ending the words about him now, his dull face and wet eyes is still flashing in front of my face from which i finding hard to escape....