Everything i see....everything i feel....everything i wish to share....may be the times like, there is no one to listen to me....still i keep on talking....like i am talking to you....like i am talking to myself....forever....yes, this is what really Renju is. . .this is how i feel . . . .
Monday, February 9, 2015
When you are Lost. . . .
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changes with time" , it's a saying we hear often and few people would have
even seen that personally in their life. It's more like a usual thing happening
in different stages of life and people are least bothered about it these days.
But there are few people who failed to escape from the shackles of different
incidents in their life and gets trapped in their memories forever. . a very handful
of people. . . Like me.
supposed to be a mixture of both happiness and sorrows and it's only the lucky
few who gets the blessing to stay happy forever. Others taste the bitter
experience and still manage to move on either by cursing the fate or by just
hoping that everything will be alright soon. It's been years since i have lost
the most precious treasure in my life and I still can't figure out that, am I
walking away from it for a new life now or moving more and more deeper inside
and getting lost in memories. . .
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I too had
dreams, may be more bigger than what my little heart can hold on that time and i still didn't let it go. It's said like when come to love, people becomes more
childish and their world gets shrunk to their little dream world in which only
two of them will be there; the cute
little world full of love, where the only thing it matters is their beautiful
relation. And one day when the truth hits a hard blow that, their world
cease to exist, they fail to accept the reality and try to cling on to their belief that its all just a dream & when you wake up, everything will be alright. . .
I am tired of hearing the word "Move on" from everyone who knows me, who cares me, But least they understand that finally when i tried doing just like they all wanted, after all these years, i terribly lost the pace & i felt like i am some other person.
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I realize that i am getting lost in memories,
i am realizing that i am living more in past than in my present,
i am realizing that i am getting lost in myself for a life which now exist only in my dream,
But still i feel more secure in being myself left alone in my world than becoming someone i hardly know. . .