Somedays i wish to be connected, Somedays i wish to be isolated

We wish everyday to be different , more exciting than the previous one and for sure, former will be, but not the latter....and sometimes it can be the opposite way....leaving us in a very confused and restless state.

The people around me recognize me as a person who wish to share each and every moment of life, making it more excited and filled with fun. Because of this and an addictive of Internet, i make myself online all the time from PC when i am at home and when i am outside, used to do the same from my smartphone. In times my friends also used to make fun of me doing so and my craze of social networking and other cyber fundas. One of my friend even told like my life is really an open book by the way i used to update all my happenings even hourly in Facebook and my views in Twitter and even my depth feelings as a whole in my blog. But only a few know that i am not doing this as a hobby or passion even though i say like that; but i am keeping myself engaged and free from the thoughts which used to confuse and take my energy away. 

                        But there are days when i fail to do so and i will be completely down and i used to keep away from all this for the time being, even the phone calls and messaging; though i know it doesn't change anything, still that isolation makes me feel comfortable and i am allowed to remain in my world of empty thoughts....with a unique feeling of satisfaction....and most time i will be unaware of how long i will be remaining like that. But one thing for sure even when i am back to all these routine, i wont be feeling any energy that day to interact with others and ie why i am just blogging now. Though days of these kind take my mood as a whole and leaves me depressed, still i am loving it; a fact that i am accepting my loneliness wholeheartedly now....

PS: Among these kind of days, there are times when i used to take a lonely ride in my bike for long distance with no specific destination. The longer i take the ride the more fresh and comfort i feel, which makes me feel strongly that nature really has its own way of healing mind and soul and i am really thankful to god for it.

Smile can be gifted to you in unexpected ways

It was around 3:30 past noon and i was returning from office to home. The rain has just stopped a few minutes before and hence i ride my bike a little slow than usual, since i found the road  little slippery. But its true ,what the breeze do to us while driving bike in this climate is really cool...

It was just when leaving the bunk after filling petrol on my ride, i noticed the vehicle traveling in front of me. What i felt a little odd about it was its passengers. It was a truck carrying three mopeds in its back and also three people over the side having chit chat. Among them was there one person who looked like a  kind of freak out and was sitting over the moped itslef as if riding. I continued to drive without knowing that that he is gonna grab my attention little later.

As my ride continued and since  i was feeling very hungry, the thoughts was fully of having food at home the sooner. During that time, i noticed something strange acts being done, by that very person traveling in the truck. At first i thought he was waving hands to the persons he know, by chance on the road sides. But within few minutes i realized that he was not doing it to specific persons , but to every one he came across while he was traveling. He was finding some kind of pleasure in doing so and from his bright face with a natural smile, i felt like every person whom he waves hand too find this funny and were happy. 

                     

                                       I dont know why, but i didn't felt like overtaking the truck and so traveled behind them. He began to notice me, but since i was wearing full face helmet he coudnt see my face clearly and so little hesitant to wave hands at me..may be confused how i would respond since i am traveling just behind them. He continued to do the same with every person who were walking beside the road or overtaking in bikes and even the people who were waiting at bus stops. By traveling behind them for few minutes and watching all these i felt like he is spreading happiness not only to everyone he see, but he was gifting me too a  smile inside and i felt very good. I thanked that unknown person for doing the same and really felt like thanking him directly or at least speak to him.

When it was just half kilometer to reach my home the truck slowed down at a stop, behind a waiting bus and me too stood just beside the truck in my bike. It was when our hero suddenly asked 

 " helo etta (brother) whats the mileage you are getting? "

 In a surprise of his sudden question, i couldn't hide the happiness rising in my face and  i managed to tell like i am getting around 45-50kmph. Then came his frank reply 

" my brother too bought this bike..really nice bike.."

His talking was really like he knew me since months and i was smiling all this time and during my thoughts came his second question 

" Is this bike 2 year old? "

When i replied like its 5 years old, he was surprised and appreciated for maintaining in very well...with that

I slowed down when i was about to cross the road to enter the sub-road to my home. I looked towards the truck, but he was busy talking to his friends on the truck about the bike, that he hardly noticed i left the road.

He is purely an unknown person..but the happiness he gave me was still leaving a smile even after  reaching home...and i greeted my mom with that smile...She too seems to convey it and may be satisfied that i had a happy day.

Never had thought that an unknown person can give us smile in our face....

If an unknown person can make us smile and spread happiness, why cant we do the same to all our dear ones....always....