Somedays i wish to be connected, Somedays i wish to be isolated

We wish everyday to be different , more exciting than the previous one and for sure, former will be, but not the latter....and sometimes it can be the opposite way....leaving us in a very confused and restless state.

The people around me recognize me as a person who wish to share each and every moment of life, making it more excited and filled with fun. Because of this and an addictive of Internet, i make myself online all the time from PC when i am at home and when i am outside, used to do the same from my smartphone. In times my friends also used to make fun of me doing so and my craze of social networking and other cyber fundas. One of my friend even told like my life is really an open book by the way i used to update all my happenings even hourly in Facebook and my views in Twitter and even my depth feelings as a whole in my blog. But only a few know that i am not doing this as a hobby or passion even though i say like that; but i am keeping myself engaged and free from the thoughts which used to confuse and take my energy away. 

                        But there are days when i fail to do so and i will be completely down and i used to keep away from all this for the time being, even the phone calls and messaging; though i know it doesn't change anything, still that isolation makes me feel comfortable and i am allowed to remain in my world of empty thoughts....with a unique feeling of satisfaction....and most time i will be unaware of how long i will be remaining like that. But one thing for sure even when i am back to all these routine, i wont be feeling any energy that day to interact with others and ie why i am just blogging now. Though days of these kind take my mood as a whole and leaves me depressed, still i am loving it; a fact that i am accepting my loneliness wholeheartedly now....

PS: Among these kind of days, there are times when i used to take a lonely ride in my bike for long distance with no specific destination. The longer i take the ride the more fresh and comfort i feel, which makes me feel strongly that nature really has its own way of healing mind and soul and i am really thankful to god for it.

Smile can be gifted to you in unexpected ways

It was around 3:30 past noon and i was returning from office to home. The rain has just stopped a few minutes before and hence i ride my bike a little slow than usual, since i found the road  little slippery. But its true ,what the breeze do to us while driving bike in this climate is really cool...

It was just when leaving the bunk after filling petrol on my ride, i noticed the vehicle traveling in front of me. What i felt a little odd about it was its passengers. It was a truck carrying three mopeds in its back and also three people over the side having chit chat. Among them was there one person who looked like a  kind of freak out and was sitting over the moped itslef as if riding. I continued to drive without knowing that that he is gonna grab my attention little later.

As my ride continued and since  i was feeling very hungry, the thoughts was fully of having food at home the sooner. During that time, i noticed something strange acts being done, by that very person traveling in the truck. At first i thought he was waving hands to the persons he know, by chance on the road sides. But within few minutes i realized that he was not doing it to specific persons , but to every one he came across while he was traveling. He was finding some kind of pleasure in doing so and from his bright face with a natural smile, i felt like every person whom he waves hand too find this funny and were happy. 

                     

                                       I dont know why, but i didn't felt like overtaking the truck and so traveled behind them. He began to notice me, but since i was wearing full face helmet he coudnt see my face clearly and so little hesitant to wave hands at me..may be confused how i would respond since i am traveling just behind them. He continued to do the same with every person who were walking beside the road or overtaking in bikes and even the people who were waiting at bus stops. By traveling behind them for few minutes and watching all these i felt like he is spreading happiness not only to everyone he see, but he was gifting me too a  smile inside and i felt very good. I thanked that unknown person for doing the same and really felt like thanking him directly or at least speak to him.

When it was just half kilometer to reach my home the truck slowed down at a stop, behind a waiting bus and me too stood just beside the truck in my bike. It was when our hero suddenly asked 

 " helo etta (brother) whats the mileage you are getting? "

 In a surprise of his sudden question, i couldn't hide the happiness rising in my face and  i managed to tell like i am getting around 45-50kmph. Then came his frank reply 

" my brother too bought this bike..really nice bike.."

His talking was really like he knew me since months and i was smiling all this time and during my thoughts came his second question 

" Is this bike 2 year old? "

When i replied like its 5 years old, he was surprised and appreciated for maintaining in very well...with that

I slowed down when i was about to cross the road to enter the sub-road to my home. I looked towards the truck, but he was busy talking to his friends on the truck about the bike, that he hardly noticed i left the road.

He is purely an unknown person..but the happiness he gave me was still leaving a smile even after  reaching home...and i greeted my mom with that smile...She too seems to convey it and may be satisfied that i had a happy day.

Never had thought that an unknown person can give us smile in our face....

If an unknown person can make us smile and spread happiness, why cant we do the same to all our dear ones....always....

Its really nice to have dear ones who care for us

Today is February 14th, celebrated as the Valentines day worldwide. . . a day to express, share and celebrate the love for our dear ones. . . .especially for those who are in love. . .really a wonderful day to enjoy which will be treasured as a sweet chapter in their life. . . .But for those who have lost their love in the pace of life, its only the sweet memories which they can cherish on this day leaving a deep pain inside the heart which they fail to suppress, even though what ever  reality they seems to realize, adjust and live with. 

Yes, true love lives inside your heart no matter how much successful you may be to hide it, u cant just forget it.

Its really painful to see a day as so common in our life, which was once a very special one for which we may have even prepared weeks in prior for collecting greeting cards, chocolates, small gifts etc. And most of them all, planning well to give surprises and happiness in the most sweet way that out dear one feel so heavenly with our presence. Its indeed true that being in love is the most beautiful part of a persons life. Those who are lucky enough to be gifted with love feels so much thankful to god as they feel like being in paradise itself. How ardently i wish and pray to god that those who are in love never part, since i realize how much pain it causes and leaves you a heart so empty with thoughts behind when we lose our loved ones.

All the day while getting engaged with work, i was just thinking that valentines day too has become just like any other day for me now and i smiled inside how life has changed all these years. It was then i received a call on my smartphone from a number so unfamiliar since it represent a number similar to the one of internet calling. Though i coudnt pick the call at first, since i was involved in an active conversion, i made sure to attend the same when it ranged the next time. It was my old friend who had gone abroad an year back. He has been my buddy since school days and what made us so close to each other is our view point of love. It may be a coincidence that he too was involved in a love affair at the same time while i was in love with my baby. And we used to share love related problems between us and how to be so true to our partners. But how unlucky is that fate too followed us in the similar way. Both of our love relations ended a few years back. May be ie why we both understand each other much better than others, that how much pain we are going through all these years. A pain which keeps burning inside heart which only people who have been in true love can feel. . .

I am really very much happy to have a talk with him since it has been months since we talked, though we used to contact via social networking on alternate days. I felt so much grateful when he told that he realize how lonely i may be feeling on this very day and ie why he called to make me feel comfortable. I am really feeling very much lucky to have a friend like this. . . Thank you dear. Though we both have lost our dear ones, those sweet memories gives us strength to go on since we have been true all the time. . . .

While standing alone today with whatsoever life have left with me, i still feel so much gracious to god for blessing me with this precious gift of love. . . .which even though i failed to keep as my own, i treasure  those sweet memories which lives within me now and forever. . . .

Oh Chocolate. . . . I am in love with you. . . :-)

My love for chocolate is really famous between my friends. They used to make fun of me with this and also at the same time, they never forgot to gift me one in time too. May be they too feel happy that there is nothing more in this world which can make me feel so happy than getting a box of chocolates as present. And i used to call them as chocolate friends. Whatever it may be, me too enjoy it and my chocolate season never ends. . . .

 It became more or less like a routine itself for me since the chocolate has become a special item in my daily diet. For the fear of missing it in any single day, i used to buy and store a lot of chocolates in the refrigerator at my home. And most of the times i prefer  picking the family pack of the one i  wish to taste. One of my friend who visited my home few months back was really surprised by the way i have kept chocolates instore and then only he realized how seriously i am in love with chocolates. .ha ha ha. . Anyway i am not just fond of expensive chocolates but used to stick to the special tastes of Cadbury, Nestle, Campco etc and so that it wont affect my monthly budget that much though believe me i am spending a lot more. To an extent i have actually cut shifted my taste of soft drinks for the chocolates.

For me the feel i get while having Dairy Milk is so special that it remains as my favorite pick all these years. I call it like love chocolate since it has been present in all the sweet moments of my life and so while beginning any new relationship, i always prefer to gift Dairy Milk as the first one; though my very luckiest friends get Cadburys Temptations!!!

When talking about Campco, it was one of the most favorite pick of mine next to Dairy milk since school days. Used to get it frequently by persuading mom and she too loves to get one for me and my sister. It was really sad that, the very brand disappeared from the market and i was hardly finding it in any of the shops in my town. And so i was back to the ones provided by Cadburys & Nestle and all these years i used to enjoy each and everyone of their chocolates. I can say like there was not a single week in which i missed eating one. I am thankful to god that, today that frequency changed to single day!!!  Yup, eating one after having dinner is a routine now. And to my greatest surprise the products of Campco are now widely available in all stores and that too with vivid types like Melto, Turbo, Krust etc. and that too in mini packs also for sweetening tongue in time!! I realize that my coming days are going to get engaged with these guys for sure. . . .

When my friends used to tell that i am like a child in the case of eating chocolates, i just smile to them; not just because i love chocolates but thinking about the situation which forced me to do so. Earlier it was like, i found consuming chocolates as so loving when ever i feel depressed and it helped me in having a childish feel inside helping to divert from thoughts. I bet it really helped and from one of my friends i knew that, its truth too. 

               Later on, the treatment i have been undergoing for a long time  for RA , it has added a large set of medicines in my daily schedule to consume. Taking it over and over in time, i felt like my tongue has really lost the touch of taste in enjoying dishes. And it is really interesting that chocolate emerged as a solution in front of me by making me happy and helps to feel the taste of it every time i have it. . . .and so no option guys. . . .my chocolate mission continues forever. . . . :-)

Lost and found!! Yup, this time i am lucky. . . .

In the fast pace of life, its quite natural that we people get busy with one or other work and we become careless too sometimes. And what happens in that occasions is that we become little absent minded for a while, which in return leads to loss of some stuff we are carrying. It can range from a small hankie to an expensive smartphone and not only that, whatever stuff we carry while being on travel. And most of the time the realization that we have lost it will come only after a long time and that time decides our percentage of luck in getting the lost thing back.

The previous day me too have gone through such a situation and i am happy to share the news that i am indeed very lucky to get it back.

Since my parents were going to my sister's house in Alapuzha to attend a function, few of my relatives too was joining them and so my dad assigned me the job of picking them in evening from their home a day before itself, since the train by which they are going Alapuzha have pretty early morning departure time. As scheduled i went on car to my native place to pick them and since my parents have already informed them they were ready and we planned to drive back after having a coffee since the night has already started to fall and we hoped to reach back home by the time of dinner. Back on wheels and driving hardly two kilometers i realized that something was missing. . . . With a shock, Yes my Bluetooth Headset!!

Buying a bluetooth headset for attending calls was not of any special interest for me since i had considered it as a bit show off while surrounded by public. But when our family bought a car and we used to take long rides in time, i realized that though attending calls while driving is not a problem for me, but it surely upsets the co-passengers at that time; and if the traffic too become dense, i avoided attending calls for the time being for the matter of safety. Thats the moment when buying a bluetooth headset striked my mind since i am sure it will definitely solve the problem. And i am happy that from the time i have bought it, i didnt have any problems till today in attending calls while on drive. So the missing of the same really hit like a shock over me.

Usually while leaving the car, I used to keep the bluetooth headset inside the car only, since i use it only while driving.  But this time i carelessly put it inside my shirt pocket itself and i could visualize the way i have lost it. Only confusion remains is that whether it has fallen inside or outside the car while i just took the car few minutes back. An easy check on the smartphone screen itself helped me to realize that the bluetooth pairing has been disconnected and so the headset not near anyway. Without wasting time i started the engine and drove back to my relatives home hoping to get it back though i was not quite sure about it. Time was already 8:30pm and due to the absence of any street lights nearby, it was only my car's head light which provided me assistance to search near the premises of their gate. As every second passed i could sense my heartbeat rising and my hope of finding it back was lowering. It was that very moment when i spotted a black stuff lying in the ground among the tiny stones. . .Ooops. .Its what i have been searching. .  my bluetooth headset!!! Besides the presence of few scratches over the body due to the falling impact, the headset was working perfectly like before. . .

Most of the time when i lose any stuff like this, i hardly get it back and i used to console myself, though i feel very sad deep inside. But this time when i got it back,  i am really overwhelmed with happiness and felt all this incident as a miracle . . . While driving back home i felt very much relived and thanked god for making me lucky this time. . . .

When a guest gives surprise visits frequently. . .

Its really nice to have a surprise visit from our dear ones in time, since it follows moments filled with happiness and funny stuff to share and treasure for future. Because as we get older with time, its only these sweet moments which will bring smile in our face and cherish the happiness even if we are left alone. Like everyone i too have the same opinion in this and i am lucky to have such occasions in my life though not frequently.

But how will it be the situation if the very guest who visit you is not just a stranger to you, but also a bit dangerous too??
Yup, i said the term correct; Dangerous and the guest i was referring too is not a human being also, but a 7 feet Snake!! Its totally strange na? I would not have considered it much important since snakes visiting home in time are a common stuff. But what if the same snake visit the home once or twice in a week? We can only assume that most probably its home too is near ours!!

It has been two months since this is happening and it was my mom who first noticed it. She was watering the plants in our garden while the snake made the first appearance. Though my mom was afraid on the first visual of the snake, she was a bit relieved when she realized that the snake she saw is a non-poisonous one. Still the fact that its a snake and the enormous length of it urged us to get it out of the compound wall sooner before it harms anyone.  Moreover it was the time for our doggie Prince to have leisure play time and we didnt want the doggie to get encountered with the snake.  But getting the snake out of the compound became a tedious job when it found a hole near the wall as a safe spot and started to hide inside it.  It took more than half an hour for the snake to feel comfortable and get out of the hiding spot, as we were far out of his visual and was checking him from inside of the house to know whether he has gone. And hence the first meeting of us with this snake ended dramatically leaving us a story to tell others. But little we know that, it was just a beginning.

The same snake made a frequent visits in the following weeks . And every time it visited, the hole near the wall became his safe hiding spot and it kept us engaged all the time busy observing it, till it leave the hole and go outside. One day my mom was cleaning the vessels at the back side of the house and she was shocked when she accidentally noticed the snake which was crawling over the compound wall slowly and passing to the neighbours house. During one of the visit he even get inside my house and made a mess and it was one of our neighbour who helped us in getting him outside. Luckily no one was hurt.

I am not sure why he is visiting our home in time; may be he too got bored of sitting alone inside his home. Whatever it may be , i am feeling less tensed since every time he visit us, he dont give us any trouble ( it was we only who feel afraid and tensed coz of his presence) and leave home calmly. . . .

huh, i am glad to see you in time my 7 feet friend. .  :-)

When Passion Vs Time for achieving matters

                     The passion for taking photos has been my companion from my school days itself, when i could barely hold an analog camera in my hand without shivering and take snaps. But from then itself, i used to get appreciations from the people who see it; not because of the clarity but for the subjective nature and the way in which i have shot the pic. To be frank i tried all those shots by the inspiration i got from watching a lot of movies and i am sure that it helped a lot too in all my way till today.

     

                    As time passed and when i started my college days while picking a mobile phone, i chose a model with camera like i have decided earlier itself because i don't want to miss capturing any moment which i felt special on the go. And from then i took the love for photography inside me to a very next level that my camera eye opened to capture a lot of precious moments whenever i travel no matter of time or distance. I can say like, i have now a whole range of more than thousand pics which i can showcase of these kind. Currently i am using a smartphone having a 3.2 MP camera with Carl Zeiss optics which helps to brilliantly capture the moments with out losing the beauty; but still buying a digital camera have been my dream for a long time.

                    After studying, analyzing reviews, checking the common problems occurring for the users, overall product rating etc for more than a month in web and mainly trying to fit within my budget of purchase i finalized a model of Canon. It may be a coincidence but when i put a call to one of my friend, he too suggested the same brand only, since he had bought a similar model and is completely satisfied with its performance. This added the urge inside me to finalize the decision the sooner and buy the camera. Besides the condition of my health for which i have even took leave from office today, i went to the nearest ATM outlet by noon and withdraw the amount needed. Since my parents have already decided to have shopping house hold stuff in evening, i thought like i would buy the camera during the time they do shopping. For a matter of giving surprise, i didnt even informed my parents about my plan. While driving to town my mind was filled with excitement of owning a camera very soon.

                    But things didnt worked like i expected. After dropping my parents in a super market for buying things, i went in search of shops dealing with Canon. To my great disappointment most of them were having products of Sony and other companies only. But for the love i have for Canon lens which have created a big image in my mind by the reviews i have read all these months, shared from friends etc, i was least interested in other products. I was also a little hesitant to pick one from Duty paid shops for the doubt of genuineness. When the final shop i visited from where my friend have bought a Canon, it was really sad to know that their stock too have been sold out in the eve of new year. The only thing i could do which they suggested is to wait for a week or more for their next stock to come which i accepted happily because by then i have really made up my mind fully to pick only a Canon. After noting down the contact number by which i can put a call over to them for enquiring the details in coming week, i drove back to the shop where my parents were still busy purchasing stuff for home.

Now what remains as a slight confusion in my mind is that, with the full money ready on hand now, will i be able to survive the love for Canon with same frequency in coming weeks till my desired model come to store or will my mind be deviated to other models due to lack of patience or reviews from other sources. . . .

Just, have to wait and see. . . .