Some days will just simply tell us, how unlucky we are!!

In day to day life, some days just pass by leaving a great note of realization, a kinda too disturbing also leaving us too down. Its not because of the fact that it happened, but a hard truth that its happening again and again and making us force to believe how unlucky we are. . . here in this case just me.

Though i earn a very little amount of money compared to the education degree i hold, i have the habit of spending money on goodies worth useful for me as well as for my family. Because of this habit i have bought so many house hold items as well as stuff for me in time. My last purchase done the previous month was a pair of Woodland shoes. Though it was a bit more expensive than the budget i have set earlier in mind, i just bought it hoping it would last for  pretty long time. Because i had a very bad experience with shoes in past 6 months which forced me to buy two pair of shoes during that time!! So i don't wish to make the same mistake again and so finalized this one. 

When the month of December began, i was little confused of what will be my next hit on purchase. It was when i noticed that my dad used to hear music most of the time when he is at home and instead of the stereo we have, he used to enjoy music from his phone with the help of two Creative speakers of my old PC placed in the closed front portion of our home. It was when the idea of buying a Home Theater system strike my mind. Though i have 5.1 speakers for my PC, i thought another home theater will satisfy the need and also will make my dad happy if i buy it as a surprised gift. So like a target or goal, i had set buying a home theater as my this months click. Now what left was the search for a pretty good and also affordable one.

My search began with a simple word of mouth of the reviews from my friends who own home theater systems to pretty extensive search and comparison in internet. Visited few shops also in the previous week related to this, but still i couldn't settle down with a model of my choice. It was all of sudden that situations changed when i was helping out my friend the previous day in purchasing a stuff that i came through one of the home theater i had thought of buying. Of course the specifications  it hold was appealing and within my range that i almost finalized buying it in the very first sight itself. Since i had came in bike and cant carry the box, i thought of coming in car the very next day and make the deal done. 

The day began as normal but i was a bit excited than ever since i was going to purchase a new stuff for home. Came to office in car managing the question of my dad for why taking car with a single reply that i have little purchase to do. My buddy too was assisting me for the purchase with  her one year old son. The little one was too crazy that he was running and exploring each corner of the shop, and also being fascinated by his reflection in the mirror around. Things went fine and i made the purchase along with few stuff my friend too had to purchase. The home theater was company packed and the dealer  assured that currently they don't have any setup for checking the system using a dvd player and told like there is no need to check it as problems have never/least been encountered and assured me complete assistance if any such situation arises. Moreover a casual talk while settling the money help me know that the dealer was actually dad of one of our students in our institution. This made me feel the deal more reliable and took the home theater with out checking. It's for that very moment, i repent now for making the mistake by doing so.

Everyone at home was really happy to receive this new addition to the entertainment wing. The next couple of hours was filled with music treat checking out different movie titles using the player and also getting an audio output from TV. It was really a nice experience to hear our day to day programs on different channels through this home theater output. It was then i found a serious problem unnoticed till that moment. The device was not recognizing or reading pen drive input. Though the device selection mode and everything was perfect, this thing was not just getting in to track and i was becoming impatient as time passed. Earlier i thought like may be the pen drive input mode will take pretty time to read and start playing and assured myself. But as minutes passed i realized that its not going to make it. In vain i tried all possibilities of trying to play pen drive with less number of tracks thinking large number of tracks is costing time but the result was the same and finally i gave up. All the happiness i had till that moment was gone and i cursed myself for not checking the home theater from the shop itself at the time of purchase. When i checked the dealer via phone about the situation encountered he told it will take around three days for the problem to get solved, but assured me that he will replace the set if the one i bought is defective. The reason he gave me for taking three days is that my home is situated away from town and the service engineer was on tight schedule that he cant visit places. He promised to have a call back tomorrow and tell if i have figured out the problem with any settings if any, but i am already sure that its not with the settings but the hardware part itself. 

Its a simple incident happened today and actually there is nothing to worry since even the dealer itself have promised to get the problem solved though it will take few days. Moreover i can bargain over the situation and can even change the model since its a brand new product that i have purchased, but deep inside i was feeling bad of what happened. . a sick feeling that why this really happened? Everything was fine a few moments earlier and i was in peak of satisfaction in making my family members happy with a new gift for them which now turned out to be a real unpleasant situation that just left me with confused thoughts. Because this is not the first time i am encountering such a problem. Most of the the time when i make a purchase of electronic gadgets it has presented me the same situation and i have to take the stuff back to the shop. Its now more like a routine for me facing such wicked situations and i am really fed up of it, because its making me believe how unlucky i am. . .  and leaving me with a simple question. . .why always me??

The rhythm of my heart. . . .

Have you ever done something so simple and yet you feel like you are too much absorbed in it all the time while doing so? If yes, i am sure that you would have felt so much great after that and would be surprised, how come you miss such a beautiful feeling all these years. Because today, i also became a part of such a moment; too unexpected which made me really excited and filled my heart with joy for a long time. . . .

As the power failure has became a routine since past few days, i used to pack that half an hour by having dinner and so when the power is back, i can rejoin my social networking world sharing everyday fun with my buddies. Though i can access my buddies via phone to interact with them in Facebook or send sms, i have reduced that habit since typing has become a little more tedious process for me bcoz of my RA and so i depend on my PC keyboard for doing all these stuff via Bluetooth. So i just started considering that half an hour as an interval from all the stuff i am doing. My mom is also happy about this, since i will have food in right time and also right place, because usually i used to have food from my bedroom only, sitting in front of the PC, either watching a movie or interacting with my buddies via Social networking. These kinda things brings surprise to my new buddies, but for those who are in touch with me for a long time, knows very well how much crazy i am and my PC addiction!! :)

Today when the power went off at 9:30pm, may be it's because my mom was involved in a serious discussion with my dad that, she really forgot to call me for dinner. Since i don't wish to interrupt their conversation, i thought of lying in my bed for a while and plan to call her later. Since i was a bit tired than normal today bcoz of my degrading health condition, i lied in the bed facing my head down. It was a bit difficult for the first few seconds since i could hardly take my breath inside and i could also feel the gush of air intake and exhale. Without knowing a specific reason for lying in that manner i continue to do so, out of curiosity as i felt the breathing pattern too interesting. Truly saying i used to do like this when i was so young, studying in school and i was fond of making sounds by lying in this manner. The only reason is that each sound i make in that way is too sensitive to ears and i could really feel the thump effect of my voice!! What more is needed for a 10 year old child to feel excited and do it again and again? But that was 18 years before and it has no significance to my current life. . Bcoz of a fact which i hardly believe now also, that i have grown up.

By lying in the same posture for a few minutes, It was when i started noticing that i can really feel the beat of my heart. The more i started listening to it the more i got excited. It even made me feel like its following some pattern than normal. What could that actually be? It was definitely not similar to some collective beats as we see in some music videos. But indeed it has a flow far different from all that. . a flow which had silence for few seconds. .then a continuous overflow for few seconds and it was interesting that it was not following a regular pattern! It would have become a matter of fear and confusion for me, But i find it interesting and closely started observing its nature. I started picturising the beats as too personal and it is actually speaking to me. . felt like it's answering my questions. . felt like it is desperately waiting to do this since a long time. . and i could sense the beat just like a person's way of talking. . following a low tone and high tone approach. . Never did i even imagined the fact that the thing called heart can make you feel puzzled like this. .

 I may be crazy thinking all this way, doing stuff which will make others feel like i am experiencing some kinda problem. . . .a kinda psychic. . . .but i really care least for that since what i experienced,  though for a short time is a wonderful world!! An experience which made me feel heaven and surprised me by making me realize a fact that i have a true companion within me, who is so desperately in need  of my company. . . . I can hardly distinguish this from dream or reality, bcoz when i got up from my bed i could feel my heart is pounding with joy. . a unique experience which cant be described in words. . .making me smile all the time. . . .while i could still hear the faint voice of my mom calling me for having dinner. . . .

A flower that failed to bloom. . . .

" With lots of hope they raised a plant. . . .

They watered it regularly. . . .

Choosed the best place where it can grow freely. . . . 

Provided it with the required need of sunlight and materials. . . .

As each day passed, they were excited about the growth of it. . . .

Happiness started filling their heart. . . . 

Hopes began to design dreams inside them. . 

Among the cluster of the whole garden ,  they anxiously waited for this very own plant of them to bloom a beautiful flower to add colors to their life. . . .

But the flower didnt bloom in the desired time. . . .

Excitement changed to anxiety. . . .

Still they didnt gave up. . . .

They prayed to god, helped the plant more to live. . . .

But the truth was something which they coudnt accept. . . .

The very plant could never bloom flowers. . . . 

And the worst part is that , it is getting rotten as day passes. . . . 

The sweetness of life is getting faded off slowly from it . . . .

The plant seems to get separated from the cluster of garden. . . .

With the disease crept all over it, the plant is realizing his fate. . . .

But hiding his sadness, it seems to spread happiness all over the garden. . . .

And everyone around joins him but failed  to notice the tears hidden behind the eyes. . . .

The very plant which is ought to bloom beautiful flowers is finding hard even to live a normal life. . . . 

They are heartbroken seeing the plant's condition. . . . 

The very plant upon which they had built hopes is slowly becoming their burden. . . . 

The plant could do nothing now. . . .

But wishing to fall on to the ground, the earliest. . . . "

PS: Living with a disease is really painful. But what hurts more is the realization of the fact that, we are causing a lot of sadness to others also who are around us. . . 

- Renju

Am i faking out my life ?

Life is not the same anymore and is definitely not like i have expected or dreamed earlier. The beautiful life i have built inside my heart with my loved one, the wonderful world in which only we both loved each other more than anything else is a past thing now. Its just like any other love story which ended in a not so good way. For others it may be just a story, but only a few know that my heart which got broken that time is shattered in to pieces in such a way that it wont ever find peace again. The reason being me for the breakup for her good, i took the whole responsibility of what had happened and made myself a person with stone heart.  That time, only one thing was there in my mind, that i have done what is right for her family, what is good for her, a beautiful and secure life afterwards with a promising person than being with me. But what will happen to me after that, i was unsure, still believing that i can go through these hard times. Though i was aware of this situation earlier and prepared mentally for it, its too hard when the reality shows up and i am realizing that i am loosing myself slowly as days pass on.

Its been almost seven months since i have even posted anything in my blog. Not because i don't have anything in particular to express; But the truth is just the opposite. I have been creating hundreds of thoughts inside my mind, of every occasion i have felt special, every moment which made me happy and those hard time in which i have felt like falling down. .And it was the sad moments which comes more often making me feel so lonely. . But. . i just couldn't put those in to words or express to anyone. . .Because i know very well that i have nothing to share with them but a bunch of sadness and some disappointing situations of my life which can only bring tears in their eyes. . Should i really hurt my dear ones by telling all these? And that too for a thing i clearly know that, is not gonna be the same as i have dreamed off.

And the solution i found to make people feel different of me is to make myself the best comedian they have ever seen and thus making the sadness inside me get unnoticed. I shared funny times with my dear ones, by even cracking jokes about myself, dragging everyone in to conversations pulling others legs with witty numbers and thus making a real mess itself all the time. As time passed, i got more used to it and the number of people who started mingling with me also increased making me feel so relieved that i am in one way or other becoming a sweet essence in their happy life. This cluster of dear ones includes my family members, my classmates, my colleagues, my students and literally everyone with whom i come through in my day to day life. With the interaction in social networking i was able to do this even more by hanging out with them all the time and just like i had expected everyone started taking it in a positive manner and enjoyed my company. . . .

 

Only a few among them who became so close to me really know what was going through my mind all the time. . . .only that handful number of my friends know the real me and the the painful fact that i am pasting a smile in front of everyone and making them happy, while the immense sadness is buried deep inside my heart forever. . . .

It has now became my character or my way of life itself and people have started believing me that i am like this only. . An easy go. . no tension. . always happy guy. .Its definitely something i had to feel proud off since everything  worked just like i have expected. . . .

But in real what's happening to me??

Its like i am forgetting who i am in real!

which poses a big question in front of me. . . .

Am i faking out my life??

Somedays i wish to be connected, Somedays i wish to be isolated

We wish everyday to be different , more exciting than the previous one and for sure, former will be, but not the latter....and sometimes it can be the opposite way....leaving us in a very confused and restless state.

The people around me recognize me as a person who wish to share each and every moment of life, making it more excited and filled with fun. Because of this and an addictive of Internet, i make myself online all the time from PC when i am at home and when i am outside, used to do the same from my smartphone. In times my friends also used to make fun of me doing so and my craze of social networking and other cyber fundas. One of my friend even told like my life is really an open book by the way i used to update all my happenings even hourly in Facebook and my views in Twitter and even my depth feelings as a whole in my blog. But only a few know that i am not doing this as a hobby or passion even though i say like that; but i am keeping myself engaged and free from the thoughts which used to confuse and take my energy away. 

                        But there are days when i fail to do so and i will be completely down and i used to keep away from all this for the time being, even the phone calls and messaging; though i know it doesn't change anything, still that isolation makes me feel comfortable and i am allowed to remain in my world of empty thoughts....with a unique feeling of satisfaction....and most time i will be unaware of how long i will be remaining like that. But one thing for sure even when i am back to all these routine, i wont be feeling any energy that day to interact with others and ie why i am just blogging now. Though days of these kind take my mood as a whole and leaves me depressed, still i am loving it; a fact that i am accepting my loneliness wholeheartedly now....

PS: Among these kind of days, there are times when i used to take a lonely ride in my bike for long distance with no specific destination. The longer i take the ride the more fresh and comfort i feel, which makes me feel strongly that nature really has its own way of healing mind and soul and i am really thankful to god for it.

Smile can be gifted to you in unexpected ways

It was around 3:30 past noon and i was returning from office to home. The rain has just stopped a few minutes before and hence i ride my bike a little slow than usual, since i found the road  little slippery. But its true ,what the breeze do to us while driving bike in this climate is really cool...

It was just when leaving the bunk after filling petrol on my ride, i noticed the vehicle traveling in front of me. What i felt a little odd about it was its passengers. It was a truck carrying three mopeds in its back and also three people over the side having chit chat. Among them was there one person who looked like a  kind of freak out and was sitting over the moped itslef as if riding. I continued to drive without knowing that that he is gonna grab my attention little later.

As my ride continued and since  i was feeling very hungry, the thoughts was fully of having food at home the sooner. During that time, i noticed something strange acts being done, by that very person traveling in the truck. At first i thought he was waving hands to the persons he know, by chance on the road sides. But within few minutes i realized that he was not doing it to specific persons , but to every one he came across while he was traveling. He was finding some kind of pleasure in doing so and from his bright face with a natural smile, i felt like every person whom he waves hand too find this funny and were happy. 

                     

                                       I dont know why, but i didn't felt like overtaking the truck and so traveled behind them. He began to notice me, but since i was wearing full face helmet he coudnt see my face clearly and so little hesitant to wave hands at me..may be confused how i would respond since i am traveling just behind them. He continued to do the same with every person who were walking beside the road or overtaking in bikes and even the people who were waiting at bus stops. By traveling behind them for few minutes and watching all these i felt like he is spreading happiness not only to everyone he see, but he was gifting me too a  smile inside and i felt very good. I thanked that unknown person for doing the same and really felt like thanking him directly or at least speak to him.

When it was just half kilometer to reach my home the truck slowed down at a stop, behind a waiting bus and me too stood just beside the truck in my bike. It was when our hero suddenly asked 

 " helo etta (brother) whats the mileage you are getting? "

 In a surprise of his sudden question, i couldn't hide the happiness rising in my face and  i managed to tell like i am getting around 45-50kmph. Then came his frank reply 

" my brother too bought this bike..really nice bike.."

His talking was really like he knew me since months and i was smiling all this time and during my thoughts came his second question 

" Is this bike 2 year old? "

When i replied like its 5 years old, he was surprised and appreciated for maintaining in very well...with that

I slowed down when i was about to cross the road to enter the sub-road to my home. I looked towards the truck, but he was busy talking to his friends on the truck about the bike, that he hardly noticed i left the road.

He is purely an unknown person..but the happiness he gave me was still leaving a smile even after  reaching home...and i greeted my mom with that smile...She too seems to convey it and may be satisfied that i had a happy day.

Never had thought that an unknown person can give us smile in our face....

If an unknown person can make us smile and spread happiness, why cant we do the same to all our dear ones....always....

Its really nice to have dear ones who care for us

Today is February 14th, celebrated as the Valentines day worldwide. . . a day to express, share and celebrate the love for our dear ones. . . .especially for those who are in love. . .really a wonderful day to enjoy which will be treasured as a sweet chapter in their life. . . .But for those who have lost their love in the pace of life, its only the sweet memories which they can cherish on this day leaving a deep pain inside the heart which they fail to suppress, even though what ever  reality they seems to realize, adjust and live with. 

Yes, true love lives inside your heart no matter how much successful you may be to hide it, u cant just forget it.

Its really painful to see a day as so common in our life, which was once a very special one for which we may have even prepared weeks in prior for collecting greeting cards, chocolates, small gifts etc. And most of them all, planning well to give surprises and happiness in the most sweet way that out dear one feel so heavenly with our presence. Its indeed true that being in love is the most beautiful part of a persons life. Those who are lucky enough to be gifted with love feels so much thankful to god as they feel like being in paradise itself. How ardently i wish and pray to god that those who are in love never part, since i realize how much pain it causes and leaves you a heart so empty with thoughts behind when we lose our loved ones.

All the day while getting engaged with work, i was just thinking that valentines day too has become just like any other day for me now and i smiled inside how life has changed all these years. It was then i received a call on my smartphone from a number so unfamiliar since it represent a number similar to the one of internet calling. Though i coudnt pick the call at first, since i was involved in an active conversion, i made sure to attend the same when it ranged the next time. It was my old friend who had gone abroad an year back. He has been my buddy since school days and what made us so close to each other is our view point of love. It may be a coincidence that he too was involved in a love affair at the same time while i was in love with my baby. And we used to share love related problems between us and how to be so true to our partners. But how unlucky is that fate too followed us in the similar way. Both of our love relations ended a few years back. May be ie why we both understand each other much better than others, that how much pain we are going through all these years. A pain which keeps burning inside heart which only people who have been in true love can feel. . .

I am really very much happy to have a talk with him since it has been months since we talked, though we used to contact via social networking on alternate days. I felt so much grateful when he told that he realize how lonely i may be feeling on this very day and ie why he called to make me feel comfortable. I am really feeling very much lucky to have a friend like this. . . Thank you dear. Though we both have lost our dear ones, those sweet memories gives us strength to go on since we have been true all the time. . . .

While standing alone today with whatsoever life have left with me, i still feel so much gracious to god for blessing me with this precious gift of love. . . .which even though i failed to keep as my own, i treasure  those sweet memories which lives within me now and forever. . . .

Oh Chocolate. . . . I am in love with you. . . :-)

My love for chocolate is really famous between my friends. They used to make fun of me with this and also at the same time, they never forgot to gift me one in time too. May be they too feel happy that there is nothing more in this world which can make me feel so happy than getting a box of chocolates as present. And i used to call them as chocolate friends. Whatever it may be, me too enjoy it and my chocolate season never ends. . . .

 It became more or less like a routine itself for me since the chocolate has become a special item in my daily diet. For the fear of missing it in any single day, i used to buy and store a lot of chocolates in the refrigerator at my home. And most of the times i prefer  picking the family pack of the one i  wish to taste. One of my friend who visited my home few months back was really surprised by the way i have kept chocolates instore and then only he realized how seriously i am in love with chocolates. .ha ha ha. . Anyway i am not just fond of expensive chocolates but used to stick to the special tastes of Cadbury, Nestle, Campco etc and so that it wont affect my monthly budget that much though believe me i am spending a lot more. To an extent i have actually cut shifted my taste of soft drinks for the chocolates.

For me the feel i get while having Dairy Milk is so special that it remains as my favorite pick all these years. I call it like love chocolate since it has been present in all the sweet moments of my life and so while beginning any new relationship, i always prefer to gift Dairy Milk as the first one; though my very luckiest friends get Cadburys Temptations!!!

When talking about Campco, it was one of the most favorite pick of mine next to Dairy milk since school days. Used to get it frequently by persuading mom and she too loves to get one for me and my sister. It was really sad that, the very brand disappeared from the market and i was hardly finding it in any of the shops in my town. And so i was back to the ones provided by Cadburys & Nestle and all these years i used to enjoy each and everyone of their chocolates. I can say like there was not a single week in which i missed eating one. I am thankful to god that, today that frequency changed to single day!!!  Yup, eating one after having dinner is a routine now. And to my greatest surprise the products of Campco are now widely available in all stores and that too with vivid types like Melto, Turbo, Krust etc. and that too in mini packs also for sweetening tongue in time!! I realize that my coming days are going to get engaged with these guys for sure. . . .

When my friends used to tell that i am like a child in the case of eating chocolates, i just smile to them; not just because i love chocolates but thinking about the situation which forced me to do so. Earlier it was like, i found consuming chocolates as so loving when ever i feel depressed and it helped me in having a childish feel inside helping to divert from thoughts. I bet it really helped and from one of my friends i knew that, its truth too. 

               Later on, the treatment i have been undergoing for a long time  for RA , it has added a large set of medicines in my daily schedule to consume. Taking it over and over in time, i felt like my tongue has really lost the touch of taste in enjoying dishes. And it is really interesting that chocolate emerged as a solution in front of me by making me happy and helps to feel the taste of it every time i have it. . . .and so no option guys. . . .my chocolate mission continues forever. . . . :-)

Lost and found!! Yup, this time i am lucky. . . .

In the fast pace of life, its quite natural that we people get busy with one or other work and we become careless too sometimes. And what happens in that occasions is that we become little absent minded for a while, which in return leads to loss of some stuff we are carrying. It can range from a small hankie to an expensive smartphone and not only that, whatever stuff we carry while being on travel. And most of the time the realization that we have lost it will come only after a long time and that time decides our percentage of luck in getting the lost thing back.

The previous day me too have gone through such a situation and i am happy to share the news that i am indeed very lucky to get it back.

Since my parents were going to my sister's house in Alapuzha to attend a function, few of my relatives too was joining them and so my dad assigned me the job of picking them in evening from their home a day before itself, since the train by which they are going Alapuzha have pretty early morning departure time. As scheduled i went on car to my native place to pick them and since my parents have already informed them they were ready and we planned to drive back after having a coffee since the night has already started to fall and we hoped to reach back home by the time of dinner. Back on wheels and driving hardly two kilometers i realized that something was missing. . . . With a shock, Yes my Bluetooth Headset!!

Buying a bluetooth headset for attending calls was not of any special interest for me since i had considered it as a bit show off while surrounded by public. But when our family bought a car and we used to take long rides in time, i realized that though attending calls while driving is not a problem for me, but it surely upsets the co-passengers at that time; and if the traffic too become dense, i avoided attending calls for the time being for the matter of safety. Thats the moment when buying a bluetooth headset striked my mind since i am sure it will definitely solve the problem. And i am happy that from the time i have bought it, i didnt have any problems till today in attending calls while on drive. So the missing of the same really hit like a shock over me.

Usually while leaving the car, I used to keep the bluetooth headset inside the car only, since i use it only while driving.  But this time i carelessly put it inside my shirt pocket itself and i could visualize the way i have lost it. Only confusion remains is that whether it has fallen inside or outside the car while i just took the car few minutes back. An easy check on the smartphone screen itself helped me to realize that the bluetooth pairing has been disconnected and so the headset not near anyway. Without wasting time i started the engine and drove back to my relatives home hoping to get it back though i was not quite sure about it. Time was already 8:30pm and due to the absence of any street lights nearby, it was only my car's head light which provided me assistance to search near the premises of their gate. As every second passed i could sense my heartbeat rising and my hope of finding it back was lowering. It was that very moment when i spotted a black stuff lying in the ground among the tiny stones. . .Ooops. .Its what i have been searching. .  my bluetooth headset!!! Besides the presence of few scratches over the body due to the falling impact, the headset was working perfectly like before. . .

Most of the time when i lose any stuff like this, i hardly get it back and i used to console myself, though i feel very sad deep inside. But this time when i got it back,  i am really overwhelmed with happiness and felt all this incident as a miracle . . . While driving back home i felt very much relived and thanked god for making me lucky this time. . . .

When a guest gives surprise visits frequently. . .

Its really nice to have a surprise visit from our dear ones in time, since it follows moments filled with happiness and funny stuff to share and treasure for future. Because as we get older with time, its only these sweet moments which will bring smile in our face and cherish the happiness even if we are left alone. Like everyone i too have the same opinion in this and i am lucky to have such occasions in my life though not frequently.

But how will it be the situation if the very guest who visit you is not just a stranger to you, but also a bit dangerous too??
Yup, i said the term correct; Dangerous and the guest i was referring too is not a human being also, but a 7 feet Snake!! Its totally strange na? I would not have considered it much important since snakes visiting home in time are a common stuff. But what if the same snake visit the home once or twice in a week? We can only assume that most probably its home too is near ours!!

It has been two months since this is happening and it was my mom who first noticed it. She was watering the plants in our garden while the snake made the first appearance. Though my mom was afraid on the first visual of the snake, she was a bit relieved when she realized that the snake she saw is a non-poisonous one. Still the fact that its a snake and the enormous length of it urged us to get it out of the compound wall sooner before it harms anyone.  Moreover it was the time for our doggie Prince to have leisure play time and we didnt want the doggie to get encountered with the snake.  But getting the snake out of the compound became a tedious job when it found a hole near the wall as a safe spot and started to hide inside it.  It took more than half an hour for the snake to feel comfortable and get out of the hiding spot, as we were far out of his visual and was checking him from inside of the house to know whether he has gone. And hence the first meeting of us with this snake ended dramatically leaving us a story to tell others. But little we know that, it was just a beginning.

The same snake made a frequent visits in the following weeks . And every time it visited, the hole near the wall became his safe hiding spot and it kept us engaged all the time busy observing it, till it leave the hole and go outside. One day my mom was cleaning the vessels at the back side of the house and she was shocked when she accidentally noticed the snake which was crawling over the compound wall slowly and passing to the neighbours house. During one of the visit he even get inside my house and made a mess and it was one of our neighbour who helped us in getting him outside. Luckily no one was hurt.

I am not sure why he is visiting our home in time; may be he too got bored of sitting alone inside his home. Whatever it may be , i am feeling less tensed since every time he visit us, he dont give us any trouble ( it was we only who feel afraid and tensed coz of his presence) and leave home calmly. . . .

huh, i am glad to see you in time my 7 feet friend. .  :-)

When Passion Vs Time for achieving matters

                     The passion for taking photos has been my companion from my school days itself, when i could barely hold an analog camera in my hand without shivering and take snaps. But from then itself, i used to get appreciations from the people who see it; not because of the clarity but for the subjective nature and the way in which i have shot the pic. To be frank i tried all those shots by the inspiration i got from watching a lot of movies and i am sure that it helped a lot too in all my way till today.

     

                    As time passed and when i started my college days while picking a mobile phone, i chose a model with camera like i have decided earlier itself because i don't want to miss capturing any moment which i felt special on the go. And from then i took the love for photography inside me to a very next level that my camera eye opened to capture a lot of precious moments whenever i travel no matter of time or distance. I can say like, i have now a whole range of more than thousand pics which i can showcase of these kind. Currently i am using a smartphone having a 3.2 MP camera with Carl Zeiss optics which helps to brilliantly capture the moments with out losing the beauty; but still buying a digital camera have been my dream for a long time.

                    After studying, analyzing reviews, checking the common problems occurring for the users, overall product rating etc for more than a month in web and mainly trying to fit within my budget of purchase i finalized a model of Canon. It may be a coincidence but when i put a call to one of my friend, he too suggested the same brand only, since he had bought a similar model and is completely satisfied with its performance. This added the urge inside me to finalize the decision the sooner and buy the camera. Besides the condition of my health for which i have even took leave from office today, i went to the nearest ATM outlet by noon and withdraw the amount needed. Since my parents have already decided to have shopping house hold stuff in evening, i thought like i would buy the camera during the time they do shopping. For a matter of giving surprise, i didnt even informed my parents about my plan. While driving to town my mind was filled with excitement of owning a camera very soon.

                    But things didnt worked like i expected. After dropping my parents in a super market for buying things, i went in search of shops dealing with Canon. To my great disappointment most of them were having products of Sony and other companies only. But for the love i have for Canon lens which have created a big image in my mind by the reviews i have read all these months, shared from friends etc, i was least interested in other products. I was also a little hesitant to pick one from Duty paid shops for the doubt of genuineness. When the final shop i visited from where my friend have bought a Canon, it was really sad to know that their stock too have been sold out in the eve of new year. The only thing i could do which they suggested is to wait for a week or more for their next stock to come which i accepted happily because by then i have really made up my mind fully to pick only a Canon. After noting down the contact number by which i can put a call over to them for enquiring the details in coming week, i drove back to the shop where my parents were still busy purchasing stuff for home.

Now what remains as a slight confusion in my mind is that, with the full money ready on hand now, will i be able to survive the love for Canon with same frequency in coming weeks till my desired model come to store or will my mind be deviated to other models due to lack of patience or reviews from other sources. . . .

Just, have to wait and see. . . .

Another New Year went without getting noticed

Its said like celebrations used to bring happiness and prosperity along with it and bless you with immense joy; but for me it didnt present anything in particular and may be ie why even the New Year eve went like any other day. May be its because of my own mistake that i didnt take any effort to get involved or participate in the celebrations or is it because i am really least interested in doing so? What ever it may be, but i made myself sure that, none of my companions or buddies notice this sick behavior of me coz i truly wish not to become a reason to spoil their happiness because of me.

       Achieving happiness in life is what everyone dreaming off and sweet occasions really promise to give it a lot though the way of achieving it differs from person to person. And just for contributing my part and spread the message of New Year, i designed a  new year card and shared with my online buddies in facebook and orkut since social networking friends are the only people now, i keep in touch with. I understand that Social networking is a virtual world, but i am sticking to it for the time being since i am left with no other option.

Even then to an extent my this New Year is different from the previous ones coz it is the first time that i directly called a lot of my friends, students, relatives etc by phone for wishing them directly instead of putting a message. I dont know why i did like that, but i am sure that it made them too feel happy.

But being true to the core of my mind, i am mentally and physically broken down in this New Year and i wished like, it to be the last of this kind in my life. Emotionally broken down because of the losses i had in previous years while physically broken down because of the disease i am carrying on. . . .

Even then i dont blame anyone since the situation i am in now is what i have wished for always. . . . for the benefit of everyone. . . .